~Hee Jun Email~
if u guys believe in me ... that's enough ...
the news, the rumors ... the ppl ...
it's just enough if u guys can understand us, u guys got the hope from listening to our music ... these ... just enough for us to fight on ... everything ...
at least, i fink that way ...
but ...
these day ... i m tried ...
i never regret for being the Moon Hee Jun in H.O.T ... give up my ... normal life ... the normal Hee Jun's life ... this is what i chose ... it's my favour thing ... there r so much thing i still wanna do ... now, i m clearly understand i only have u guys ... nothing else ...
whenever i wanna give up ... i fink of u guys ... the every words u said ... u guys live for us ... so ... i can be brave again. (yung gi)
even when i wanna rest ... coz we dun want to disapointed u guys who always turst in us ... so we keep our sleepy eyes open ...
there r many places i wanna go ... many things i wanna do ... but i give up ... b/c of u ... b/c of me ... b/c of us!!!
u guys mean so much to me ... do u know?!?!?
lately, b/c of that ... so it's more sad ... do u know?!?!?!
if only u guys r happy ... if only u guys can wait for us ... 6 ... 7 .......... 10 albums ... so on ... we really want to keep on doing our
music ........
but we see u guys now perpairing for our break up ...........
breap up ...... retried ..... we ingored those .... coz it's not ture!
but, seeing u guys changed from the old days, i .... my heart reconsider again ....
like this .... we .... we still can keep going on?!?!
this time, Tony's songs ....... got doubt on coping ...
hu hu ... meaningful laughing ...
today .... the 3rd day from the date our album got releast ...
then ... there r rumors like that!!!!
do u know how i know it?!?!?!
Jae Won called ... he found out when he read the Fan Club messages ........
acutally, we will never know .... but .... now, u guys told us!!!
Tony .... he is very weak now ... like me ... but maybe more hard working than me .... he, Tony spent so many nights working on
his music ... he distress coz he can't write a better music ... after he finally wrote the music that he fink fans will like it ... Tony was so happy ... just like a child ...
but after Jae Won's call ... he didn't come back out from the studio ... he doesn't even wanna eat ... Woo Hyuk worry so much!
listening to these ... why i cry?!?! why the treas still coming out from my eyes?!?!
i supposed to get used to it ...........
these stuffs r not the 1 or 2 i heard from u guys .... umm ... let me repharse ... these is not the only 1 or 2 stuffs i heard from u
guys!!!
therefore ... sorry ...
let u worry ..... for what i m saying ..... i m sorry ~~
can i ask one more??? can u guys do me a favour?!?!
please ..... can u guys stay cool?!?!
if it's not spkoen from our mouth ... then it's not ture ... i fink u guys understand that .....
but .... why u guys doubt?!?!
it never happened ......... u guys never did that b4 ......
please trust us .......
sigh .... aigo ....
ahhh .... also .... some said in my song ... Woo Hyuk solo part is very little ... i sing the most .... said my songs always like that ... Young Jin hyung is always being fair ... said i m not like him ...
..... this .... is .... it hurt me ....
u really fink that way??? ...... feel i m selfish?!?! .........
in da album ... each song ... each part ... each word ... were we wroking hard on that?!?!? YES ... we worked together ... we finsihed together .......
although we didn't make the album that everyone will satisfied ... everyone like ... but we did out best .... really!!!!!
we also put some special captions in the album ....
sigh .... aigo ....
i always fink u guys can understand .....
there r so much i wanna say .......
the things i wanna say to u guys ......... one night won't be enough ........
i dunno will u guys read till the end ........
in fact, i dun wanna talk about his .... but now ... i do ...
H.O.T has 5 members .... and coz of the 5 ... H.O.T still here now .... u guys know this rite?!?!
H.O.T will be gone if one of the member is gone ... u know rite?!?!
only w/ the 5 ... we will stand on stage ...
only w/ the 5 ... we will sing on stage ...
still remember?!?!
last time Kang Ta went to do the examination in school ... we didn't sing either ...
yeah ...
last year, on the 918 concert....
at the backstage, they firmly said they r not gonna go back out w/o me ... i ... i spent a long times to get them back on stage ... pushed them out ... i feel really sorry ... to u guys ... to the members .... so sorry ...
we r just like that ...
we swear we will be like brothers 4ever .... even we die ...
.............. i dun wanna talk no more .......
coz when i fink ..... i m angry ....
the feeling i m writing this .... my feeling .... can u understand?!?!
some said ... lot of the fans went after the 4 members but Jae Won ........
haha ....
When Jae Won 1st heard this .... can u understand how he feels?!?!
he bravely said "I'm ok" ....... his expression .... do u really know?!?!?
tho he looks ok ..... tho he's smiling ... but as for music ... he has so much confidece than anybody ......
now, he's growing ...... he will be very talent in the future ...
i respect his music life ... n also appreciate his personality .......
get to know him more will only feel ... he's really a great guy .... i fink of that way not only for once .......
for those ppl who dunno .... huk .... poor ppl .....
they will never know how happeniss to know a person like Jae Won ....... they never know!!!!!
am i talking to much?!?! i dunno ........
huk .... isn't this enough?!?! it's long already .......
my feeling ........ can u guys understand?!?!
or i asked too much?!?!
plz wait for us ..... plz stay w/ us .... watch us ..... these favour .....
am i asking too much?!?!
sorry .......
always so sorry .......
the only way to express my feeling ......
now .... i m not sleeping ..... just sitting in front of the pc ..... it's late now .... the middle of the night .....
for real ......
i dun feel alrite .....
we did lot of perpares .... hard works ... practices again n again ...
what will others fink of us?!?! ........... worry ............
i wanna see ........
i wanna see ur smiling faces whom alyways look at us ......
u guys still da same?!?!
HU .......
dun 4get ......
i ....... love u so much ....... i .... still need u guys very much ...........
LOVE U .........
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